Disclaimer: I love grooveshark and as I was writing this post I was listening to Adele’s “Rolling in the Deep”, hence the post title being a line of lyrics from that song.
I feel like I’m just barely living, just breathing but not really doing much else, and that’s super depressing to think about. Do you ever have those days where you feel like there just isn’t enough time in a day to get done everything you need to and yet, not a single thing ever really gets done?? Yeah, I’ve been having those days all the time lately.
I mean, really, how important is it on a 1-10 scale that the dishes, laundry and vacuuming all get done daily? About a 1? Sometimes I think I like to stress myself out over the small things just for the fun of it, and as I said; it’s depressing to think about this stuff!
I feel like the world is dragging me down, I feel exhausted on a daily basis even though I haven’t done anything to earn that exhaustion. Where has my motivation gone? My determination? I would really like to know!
Oh, part of all this may be the fact that I’m realizing I very likely will not be able to make a trip back home this summer, as I had told my best friends and family that I would. Therefore I’d be missing my best friend’s birthday, my mom’s birthday, my other best friend’s wedding, and to top it all off, my sister’s wedding too. Part of me is really wishing that I could be there for all those events, and part of me realizes that right now it’s more important that I stay here and not spend the money or the time on that trip, even though I would really, really like to be able to go. I’m dreading having to break the this news to those same friends and family members….